Next Seed

The next confirmation I received about adopting was this fall.  It had been a few weeks since that baby girl clothes instance, and I remember feeling like, "We are crazy.  God wouldn't want us to adopt.  That would be like starting all over.  This is just one of those things like wanting a new car or new house.  It is just a flirtation.  Surely the Lord wouldn't want this for our family.  We can support others who are adopting."

Later that afternoon I took the boys to their swim lesson.  Before walking back to the swim deck, I wanted to grab a magazine so I'd having something to read as I watched them frolic in the water.  I chose a fashion magazine I hadn't seen before, and we were on our way to the back to get them ready to swim.

Once they kids were in the water, I went ahead and dove into the magazine.  It was all fashion, which was fun to read.  However toward the back of the magazine, all of a sudden there was this article from one of the editors all about how she adopted two little girls from Ethiopia....in a FASHION magazine!!!

I wept as I read about this gal and her journey to adoption.  I remember in it she said something like, "No, I don't go on vacations or play golf or meet friends for tea anymore like my friends do.  No, I don't get to have those quiet moments I always looked forward to once my kids moved out of the house.  However, those are nothing compared to what I have and what I have gained in adopting my two girls."

I needed to hear that so badly that day.  I read that, wept, and wondered if that was a sign from the Lord.  It sure seemed like it.  What are the chances that I would pick up a fashion magazine when I haven't ever picked up a magazine during their swim lessons, and in it on the very day I was feeling like God wasn't leading us in this direction there is an article all about that very thing reminding me that you give up a lot, but you get so much more back?